Hi, my name is Kristin, and I am many things: a mom, daughter, wife, sister, auntie, friend, personal trainer, yoga teacher and seeker of learning how to do this thing called life. I am passionate about wellness in many forms. My battles with an eating disorder, along with psoriasis and gut healing have been a huge part of my journey. As the name of the blog implies, rules are not my thing when it comes to wellness and life. In fact, the healing of my eating disorder in 2002 came from freedom … A realization that I am free to make the choices that I need to and to let go of all the “rules” that I set forth for myself prior to getting help.
Fast forward 10 plus years.
I am struggling with my eating disorder again as I navigate life and parenthood, and am doing everything I can to try to heal flare-ups with my psoriasis and digestive health. Over four years ago I decided to take a look at the root cause of why I felt so terrible after I had my first child. I hoped to heal naturally and was willing to do whatever it took to get better. I wanted the explosion of psoriasis, food sensitivities and other *girlie* health stuff to go away. After meeting with various health practitioners, I tried to make significant changes in my diet. I did fairly well for about month until I was laid off. This was a huge blessing to me in many ways, but it threw my world upside down. I lost the structure and rhythm of a job that kept me grounded and suddenly I had more time to be in my mind. Thus, my eating disorder slowly crept back. It was a silent battle in my mind and life. Each day was a challenge because the very thing that set me free in my initial eating disorder healing was staring me in the face: restriction! I was SO angry, sad and confused because there were so many foods that I couldn’t touch and even the foods I was eating still didn’t make me feel well. You know those stories where people say they were motivated by a particular diet or lifestyle change because they NEVER FELT BETTER? Yup, that was NOT me. In fact, I was feeling pretty crummy. I was doing a lot of griping in my mind, pushing back on my practitioners or whatever rules I was given, and I didn’t have any trust, especially in my own body. Fortunately, during these challenging days I learned a lot and was supported through my writing, daily mantras, teachers, meditation, yoga, family and friends.
My continued food sensitivities and health have led me to continue to look for ways to heal through food and natural options. I have learned a lot over the past four years and feel blessed to be on this path. Initially, when I wanted to heal my eating disorder, I thought I could just get a little help and check the box. However, as I have recently dug deeper, I realize that healing is a process and I must honor that. I also know that these challenges will serve me in my mission to help others live better lives.
Since the birth of my son (two plus years ago) I had an amazing opportunity to stay home full time. I have squeezed in my love of teaching yoga and personal training when I can and I look forward to more of this in the coming months. He is ready for preschool and I am ready to grow! My time home has been a huge blessing, but I would be lying if I said it was always pretty or easy. It has been a huge teacher for me in my own listening to what is balance for me. I am still learning and I feel so new and vulnerable in many ways.
The sum of it all is that parenthood and my shit have taught me that life isn’t about being perfect or following any one set of rules. Life is so much more than that. Each day is a new day and has its blessings and challenges. My writing is simply a reflection of how I find inspiration in each of my days through a variety of topics I have passion and real-life experience around: The simple struggles of life, my healing/living journey, recipes, yoga, meditation, exercise and wellness information. I am not an expert, but rather a real person that wants to share my experiences and my (bad) sense of humor. With the LARGE amount of information out there on wellness, it is critical that we learn to be our own teachers. It doesn't have to be pretty and it isn't about where you want to go. It’s about embracing the process of getting there.
I promise you one thing, I will NOT tell you to enjoy every minute because that is total B.S. It is not possible, not human and not real. What do I encourage? Be present in each moment and feel whatever it is you are feeling. Once you truly tap into that inner voice and inner teacher it will guide you to have more moments of joy, more moments of being present and more belief that you truly are beautiful and worthy of love. Exactly the way you are today, not tomorrow, but today. And you begin to realize your inner power and how you can choose your reaction, your thoughts and all the little choices that add up to your life, your experiences and your joy.
I am a sucker for self-help books and love any and every way on how I can improve myself, life, organization, etc. It’s a good thing because it has gotten me to where I am today. However, it is also why I struggle with perfectionism, over-analysis and letting go. Thus, I need all the help I can get to live in the present. The present is the place to be! And each time I spend just a little bit more of my day there, it feels so good. It feels like the work I am doing is paying off and I can truly embrace today: the messy parts, the pretty parts and all those in between. Thank you for your support in my journey. I am so excited to share a part of me with you and to keep moving forward in this thing called life.
Here’s to making your own rules and enjoying the process along the way.
In Light, Love and Gratitude,